A Different Life

I am sitting up wishing I could go back to sleep. Yes... I said back to sleep. If you look at the time it is 11:03 p.m. When you get up at 5:30am and your husband gets up at 4:00am, late nights are no longer an option. This is an odd change in life for me. I have never been an early to bed/early to rise person. I truthfully love late night. I am always more thoughtful during this time, maybe that is why I often have trouble sleeping. Life has settled into some sort of routine. Somedays I love this and others I long for the excitment of not know when someone was going to knock on my door, who it would be,and why they would need me. I lived the previous 8 years of my life like this. 11pm was always still early in the night. Many a dorm meeting started at 11. It is funny to think that I am trying to go back to sleep and that tomorrow will be hard to get through because I have not slept 7-8 hours. I miss being an RD. It was a sweet time in life. Maybe because the lack of routine ( and stress )had become comfortable. I hope that our time in Nashville will grow into this sense of belonging/knowing ones role and purpose. I sit here and try to remind myself to look for the beauty in the mundane... i have a roof over my head-that is a blessing!! I have two cute dogs.. i have a wonderful husband... I can drive to my family's house- thank goodness I do not have to fly... we live in a cool city-we could live in the middle of no where..I have a TV with cable-growing up we never had cable. i have a dish washer- it may be loud but it still works. So many more things to be thankful for!!! Maybe if I keep this list going in my head, I will be able to drift off to sleep.